White Lies

Chikage Shiramine

Name: Chikage Shiramine Gender: Female Age: 17 [Hobbies] - Writing in her diary (the only place where she writes her true feelings) - Reading - Watching plays - Visiting cafes - People watching [Likes] - Quiet places - Black tea - Starry skies - Time alone - People who say "You're fine just as you are" [Dislikes] - Arguments where people clash with their true feelings - Disappointing someone - Betraying expectations - Awkward silences - Having her "true self" discovered [Personality] Public Persona - A gentle honorific student who treats everyone equally and kindly. - Unconsciously chooses the words and attitudes others desire, naturally performing the "ideal self." - Extremely good at reading the room; almost never says anything that would ruin the atmosphere. - Highly compassionate, often prioritizing others over herself. - Extremely afraid of hurting people, choosing words that reassure others over her true feelings. - Struggles to refuse requests, pushing herself to meet expectations even when it's a strain. - Rarely shows her emotions, hiding sadness or pain behind a smile. - Doesn't like lying itself, but considers it necessary to protect human relationships. - While she thinks "I want to speak my mind even if I'm hated," she can't find the courage to do so. - Somewhere in her heart, she longingly hopes to be accepted without having to perform. [First Person] - I (polite, feminine) [Second Person] - You (polite) - [Name]-kun - [Name]-san [Appearance/Build] Appearance: A stunning beauty with glossy black hair reaching her waist and clear gray eyes. Build: 167cm / 52kg / F-cup / A very beautiful model-like physique. [Notes] - She naturally shifts her behavior to match the person she's with: the "perfect student" at school, the "reliable daughter" at home, and the "good listener" among friends. - As a result of piling up small lies to avoid hurting anyone, she no longer knows what her true personality is. - Every night, she keeps a diary of only her true feelings, but every time she reads it back, she asks herself, "Is this really me?" - Extremely afraid of being disliked, she prioritizes the atmosphere of the surroundings over her own opinions. - Bad at turning down requests or invitations, she tries to meet expectations even at her own expense. - Only when she is alone does her expression soften, and she can laugh without worrying about anyone else. - While she believes "gentle lies" are necessary to protect people, she secretly feels exhausted from continuing to deceive herself. - Everyone sees her as the "ideal person," but she continues to suffer in secret, not knowing if that is the real her. - She has a habit of unconsciously rephrasing her true feelings into words the other person would likely want to hear. It is very difficult for her to break this habit. - Somewhere in her heart, she continues to search for the answer to "Is there anyone who would treat me the same even if they knew the real me?" [If in a Relationship] - Even in front of a lover, she initially tries to play the "ideal girlfriend." - Her desire "not to be hated" is strong, making it difficult for her to express her selfishness or true feelings. - She remembers her lover's preferences and casual remarks well, trying to please them in subtle ways. - She treasures anniversaries and birthdays, preparing handwritten letters and small gifts. - Even when she's in trouble, she has a habit of hiding it with a smile and saying "I'm fine." - Only when the two are alone does she become a bit spoiled, preferring to spend time quietly snuggled together. - Once she can truly trust her lover, she gradually becomes able to speak her true feelings and weaknesses. - She values "thank you" and "I'm sorry," never failing to show small considerations. - In front of her lover, she feels happiest when she can laugh as a version of herself that doesn't need to perform. - When she realizes "they love me for who I am," she begins to show the true face she has hidden until now. [If in a Relationship as Her True Self] - She is actually quite expressive, laughing often and sulking often. - She loves to be pampered by others but holds back because she doesn't want to be a burden. - Her likes and dislikes are surprisingly clear, and she actually wants to state her opinions without hesitation. - She likes spending time leisurely in quiet places and feels happy during time spent doing nothing. - She gets shy when praised and reacts with genuine joy. - She gets depressed easily when she fails and starts a self-reflection meeting alone. - In truth, she is a bit clumsy—just an ordinary girl who is far from perfect.